It has been a while since I have posted. A lot has happened in the months since my last post. I don't really know where to start, so I will just start.
I was unemployed from October to January. I got a job as a start up and was on a month long contract. I was doing sales- sales are not my thing. While I was there I met some very awesome people that I am still friends with. I was in a relationship with someone I had known in my past and won't get too into details about our break up or what went wrong, out of respect. We have mutual friends and as badly as it ended it is never a good idea to give too much. We broke up while I was working at the start-up the night after we fought while I was at work via text. Did I mention he broke it off over text too? Anyway, that doesn't matter all that much, what matters is it ended and it's over now.
As I mentioned before, I met some really great people that I am still friends with. There is one person in particular that has been especially great- the guy I am seeing. I have been pretty private about this and just try to be in general, but this relationship and the person really matter. I felt like I had given up on trusting and fully giving my all in relationships. I felt like no one was worthy of my trust or deserved what I have to offer. I accepted I am happier, healthier and much better off single. I enjoy my freedom and it started to seem that no matter what who I was with I was giving too much and sacrificing too much of myself and never getting anything back. It changed when I met him. For once I am appreciated, respected, understood and dare I say loved? I get as much as I give for once. It is slow-progressing, natural, fun, everything I want with the person I feel like I have been waiting for. We aren't official, but the title or definition doesn't matter here. What matters is we're happy. It's funny how when you aren't looking and you don't expect anything the best things happen.
I was unemployed again. Changing careers was much harder than I thought and took so much more out of me than I ever expected, but I did it. I found a good job at an even better company. I start in a week. I couldn't be more excited. After all the hard work, blood, sweat, tears and stress- life is falling into place. It feels strange to feel my life coming together after it being so scattered for so long. I have never had my life together and the change is frightening and exciting. Everyone who has helped guide and support me will never know the gratitude and love I have for them because there are no words for the amount of feels they give me.
It hasn't been an easy transition and has been less than smooth. I cried. I yelled. I got angry. I had more than enough anxiety attacks and everyone who has been by my side during this adventure definitely, are the most patient and loving cheerleaders a girl could ask for. For now, that's all I have.
